I feel like a broken record at times. I don’t have anything Earth shaking to report, but I did want to do a quick update since I’m set to go back to work (again) in a few days.
Easter was last week and I set off shoulder repercussions by attempting to peel some potatoes. How dare I?!? I’m pretty frustrated right now by these limitations. This is the last in a long line of holidays & special events that I’ve been in constant pain. Enough already!
I had a follow up appointment with my Ortho Dr. on March 22. He says he has done all he can do & the rest is up to me. What does that even mean?!? I go to physical therapy every day. I do additional arm/shoulder exercises at home every day. What more can I possibly do to make this better? I’ve cried, I’ve prayed, I’ve “toughed it out” until I’m exhausted with it all. I asked him what he would suggest if going back to work causes as much pain as it did in January, with the muscle spasms & swelling. He said he would be inclined to order no more repetive motion. Ever. That, of course, would be the end of my job. It’s impossible to work in a sea of cubicles without involving the mouse & keyboard. What job doesn’t involve this sort of repetitive motion with my dominant arm?
Are we talking about disability here? Because that is devastating. I’m only 40 years old. I’ve worked & been independent my whole life. I feel used up, useless & hopeless most days. I’m still praying.
I had PT every day last week, with a pain pill before each session. The exercises are fine but there have been some pretty painful moments during the stretching. Every day there has been a little more progress, with ER still being the slowest. I’m also trying to do at least one set of exercises at home every day.
I can almost get dressed/undressed without any movement modifications. I still can’t reach up behind my back to unhook my bra. Sleeping on my right side is still painful after a few minutes. And, of course, I’m still so limited strength wise on my right side. Opening a jar is out of the question, as is boosting myself up or….doing a plank. Yeah, I’m dreaming of yoga.
On Saturday (2days ago) I drove to Lexington (about 30 miles one way) to shop with my daughter for her wedding dress. *cry*
It was my first day without a pain pill & by the end is the day I was hurting. I woke up Sunday morning feeling like I had been beaten & was miserable all day. This doesn’t bode well for driving to work, which is also in Lexington.
So that’s where I am. Still in limbo but hoping for a return to normalcy very soon.
This is my after manipulation post. I’m so happy to say it was nowhere near as bad as I expected. I woke up with a post exercise type of soreness from my shoulder, down into my hand. I already have more movement than I did, which makes me very hopeful that I might finally be on the road to recovery.
The anesthesia was a little different this time, I’m guessing that’s because the manipulation only takes a few minutes. Right before I went to sleep, the voices around me started sounding like I was underwater & then my ears were ringing. I remember saying, “This is weird” and then….nothing. I woke up feeling almost normal but by the time we got home I was dizzy & sleepy. I ended up sleeping from 2:30 to midnight.
I start PT again this morning & I’m supposed to be taking pain pills at first. Sounds promising. 😜
I have a followup visit with my doctor on 3/22. Another few weeks off work & then we will see.