Here We Go Loopty Loo…

I feel like a broken record at times.  I don’t have anything Earth shaking to report, but I did want to do a quick update since I’m set to go back to work (again) in a few days.

Easter was last week and I set off shoulder repercussions by attempting to peel some potatoes. How dare I?!? I’m pretty frustrated right now by these limitations.  This is the last in a long line of holidays & special events that I’ve been in constant pain. Enough already!

I had a follow up appointment with my Ortho Dr. on March 22.  He says he has done all he can do & the rest is up to me.  What does that even mean?!? I go to physical therapy every day. I do additional arm/shoulder exercises at home every day.  What more can I possibly do to make this better? I’ve cried, I’ve prayed, I’ve “toughed it out” until I’m exhausted with it all.  I asked him what he would suggest if going back to work causes as much pain as it did in January, with the muscle spasms & swelling. He said he would be inclined to order no more repetive motion. Ever. That, of course, would be the end of my job. It’s impossible to work in a sea of cubicles without involving the mouse & keyboard.  What job doesn’t involve this sort of repetitive motion with my dominant arm?   

Are we talking about disability here? Because that is devastating.  I’m only 40 years old.  I’ve worked & been independent my whole life.     I feel used up, useless & hopeless most days. I’m still praying.

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The Good & the Bad

I had PT every day last week, with a pain pill before each session. The exercises are fine but there have been some pretty painful moments during the stretching.  Every day there has been a little more progress, with ER still being the slowest. I’m also trying to do at least one set of exercises at home every day. 

I can almost get dressed/undressed without any movement modifications. I still can’t reach up behind my back to unhook my bra.  Sleeping on my right side is still painful after a few minutes. And, of course, I’m still so limited strength wise on my right side. Opening a jar is out of the question, as is boosting myself up or….doing a plank. Yeah, I’m dreaming of yoga. 

On Saturday (2days ago) I drove to Lexington (about 30 miles one way) to shop with my daughter for her wedding dress.  *cry*


  It was my first day without a pain pill & by the end is the day I was hurting.  I woke up Sunday morning feeling like I had been beaten & was miserable all day.  This doesn’t bode well for driving to work, which is also in Lexington.  
So that’s where I am. Still in limbo but hoping for a return to normalcy very soon. 

A.M. 

This is my after manipulation post. I’m so happy to say it was nowhere near as bad as I expected. I woke up with a post exercise type of soreness from my shoulder, down into my hand. I already have more movement than I did, which makes me very hopeful that I might finally be on the road to recovery. 

The anesthesia was a little different this time, I’m guessing that’s because the manipulation only takes a few minutes. Right before I went to sleep, the voices around me started sounding like I was underwater & then my ears were ringing. I remember saying, “This is weird” and then….nothing.  I woke up feeling almost normal but by the time we got home I was dizzy & sleepy. I ended up sleeping from 2:30 to midnight. 

I start PT again this morning & I’m supposed to be taking pain pills at first. Sounds promising. 😜

I have a followup visit with my doctor on 3/22. Another few weeks off work & then we will see.